One of the worst days of my life...

I have had one of the worst days of my life today. My little boy cat Nefer has been hacking like he’d got a big hairball since the Florida weather warmed up two weeks ago. Since Tamses was due for a vet visit, I asked hubby to bring in Nefer too just to see if they could get Nefer to spit up the hairball. They took him in and discovered that he had fluid and blood in his lungs. They ran a bunch of tests and discovered cancer. My poor boy started to have trouble breathing and we had to put him down so he wouldn’t suffocate to death. I can barely believe my little boy is dead… I’m so completely heartbroken- like someone has punched me in the chest.